Down with flu

Has my health level really gone so low?

From flu and cough during my short teaching career to food poisoning during my permanent job and now, another flu hits me. My weight continue to rise due to the amount of food i consumed in the office. my colleagues really know how to eat.

this is not my biggest concern now.

i woke up this morning feeling worried. grandma mentioned something yesterday that makes me feel worried. She said she might not come back alive. The thought of that scares me. She is having an open heart surgery to make her feel better. otherwise, she will get tired easily and maybe, seizure ( i think that is what it is called) everytime she gets too excited or tired. koko, me and lynnwei will be having breakfast with her later. DimSum at Grand Palace Hotel.

I feel so helpless that i cant help her.

Someone to hold

Many times i feel like I want to hold on to someone. Not in a relationship type. Physically...Holding hands...snuggle together...put my head on someone's shoulder...

But I restraint myself. Why the restraining? Maybe because all these things seems to be meant for girlboy relationship and i am just one girl and there is no boy.

Often, i wonder what is wrong with me. My mum suggested that it is my weight that pushes ppl away. My fat looks. Ad yet i thought personality is all it takes. Then, a thought hits me. Attractiveness...that is it! I lack of attractiveness. the magnetisicm that draws ppl to me. It doesnt matter whether one is fat or ugly. As long as one has the attractiveness factor, he or she can get anyone at all.

I think attractiveness is something that one is born with and not something one can acquire. too bad i dun have the attractiveness.

ARGH...realisation of another of my weakness...low self esteem...urgh!

Advice is for listening

" Just write in to any companies. In fact, write in to all the possible companies that you think you can work with. Don't worry about anything like your results. It is all up to those who look at your resume to decide if they want to use you. if they think you are good enough, they will employ you. Right now, they will only look at your qualification and results. After a few years, it is experience that counts. "

That is what I told a friend when she asked for my advice.

A few weeks back, a not-really-close friend called me to ask for some advice regarding her results. I was suprised because I really don't know her well at all. In fact, we don't even talk to each other before. So, you can see how surprised i was. I told her about what I did and I guess that is that best I can do since I don't really know anything much. She called back to tell me that she did what I told her and she got what she wanted. I was happy for her.
A few days ago, she called me again to ask me about something else. I, again, don't really know much so I don't think I help in any way.

A few nights ago, a different friend called me to ask me for my advice on job-hunting. Quoted above is the condensed version of what I have told her.

Natural instinct is that when one ask for advice, one will follow the advice. I never really thought about the person who give the advice. How will this person feel if this person finds out that his or her advice is not being followed? Nothing much I guess. Maybe I am wrong...

Today,

gohyie: good morning, andy chia & co.
caller: good morning. My name is XX (name is not included to prevent any legal actions..haha). I am a fresh graduate and i would like to ask if there is any vacancies in your company...
gohyie: XX! It's me. Sorry le. I dont know who to pass you to know if there is any vacancies. The receptionist is not around so I really dont know. Why dont you just write in?
caller..XX: Oh! i see...I have been calling a lot of companies for the whole morning. none of them have vacancies. how come you are the receptionist?
gohyie: oh...why not u just write in? they will call you when they have vacancies. i am just helping out at the front desk. why not i give you the mailing address of this company so that you can write in?
XX: ok...sure
gohyie: it is ......(address)...
XX: oh..thanks...i will call back later to ask the receptionist, yeah?
gohyie: sure..no problem...

Makes me wonder if she heard the advice I told her.
A few minutes later,

gohyie: good morning, andy chia & co.
XX: goo...
gohyie: STOP! wait... i will get the receptionist for you. just give me a second.
Receptionist: good morning. yes, how may i help you? ...bla bla bla...(basically telling her to write in)...

This makes me wonder...have I wasted all my saliva telling all those things to her for nothing? She needs someone else to tell her off? Hey, I should be a someone else too...

First night on a balcony...

Another one of my never-been-there-before places has become i-been-there-before place.

Tonight, I went to Balcony with three of my colleagues.

At first, we went to Al Fresco...eat a bit...drink a bit....chat a bit....the whole process took us one hour plus...A huge conclusion from it is that our main topic is always about work...cham!

Then, we went to Balcony...Nothing much happens....We sat there for nearly an hour long... I had a cup...glass...oh! a tumbler of red wine...cheap red wine...free...cause it is ladies night...hehe...

Honestly, I cant see the point of ppl sitting around watching each other drinking...Around 11.45, ppl started to crowd the dance floor....I was kind of disappointed because there wasnt much ppl dancing..cant see any action going on...Then, when we left the place, I saw that a lot of ppl are actually dancing le...Which only means that the spot I have sat all that time is actually only good for admiring the little sharks they have in their big aquarium...

Kinda of feeling tempted to boogie on the dance floor....but...I am not a good dancer...In fact, I realised that I only know how to shake my booty...and it ends there....nothing else...so no point of dancing cause I only know one section of the art of dancing...hand movement..leg movement...I have no idea about it all...That is why I wouldnt dare to dance in public...

My first experience with disco dancing..is that how to call it?....was with Mok...He showed me how he danced on the floor of Prom 2001. I was startled at that time. and then the dancing bug got me...I got pretty good dancing in my bedroom till I told Dennis about me dancing...Weirdly, from that time onwards, I dun think i can dance at all...What happen? I have no idea at all...Weird...

Looking forward to another trip to balcony....not as bad as i thought it would be...Not advisable for those who hates smoke and loud noise...

Bao Bei

hehe...
My new nickname...It has grown on me...I dun really mind anymore...Kinda of mind about it in the first place but now...it is ok liaw...

It started when my colleagues funnily mentioned that the senior assistant is very affectionate to me. So they started to call me her 'Bao-bei.' So, now, I guess it sort of stuck with me..

Got a scare just now when i heard my senior assistant mentioned that she will go home to hug her 'bao-bei' tonight. I had to remind myself that she is most probably talking about her pet dog at home...phew...relief!

PEAK SEASON IS OVER!!!!!

yea!!!

Finally, after two months of hard labour, it is finally over. I finally dont have to work overtime. Hehe...

Tonight, I will be going out to meet up with my colleagues and we will be partying to celebrate the end of the peak season.

A thought pop up....Shit! I still have a client that I need to handle after peak season...very troublesome case to handle...

"Fang Fei Zi"

Can someone tell me what does that mean?

Easy...Someone just left you hanging to do something else instead of the something promised earlier.

I am simply very angry because i showed my dedication to my FAMILY and instead I get the aeroplane. Yeah! How "wonderful"! This is what I get for giving up my time and money.

Note that I am putting the blame on myself. Maybe I should change my priority. Apologies from any party will not do anything. I wish I can say 'Dun find me, I will find you" But i cant. Cause I probably wouldnt find you at all.

I find this really ridiculuous. What the f*** is what I wanted to say now.

Is it because I never have a temper before? So easy to be bullied around? Easy to be boss around?

This is the reality now. I am just keeping it all inside. Dont go thinking that you are all superior and all. Just because I dun go caring what you are doing to me, it doesnt mean you can go do anything you like.

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Now, is it that scary? The one who gave the aeroplane....no worries....I was letting off my steam....you are not in danger....Nor am I severing my connection with you...You are most probably sitting comfortably at home using your laptop at this moment. Me? I am outside. Where? Does it even matter? My mum thought that I am working overtime at the office.
Honestly, I was going to work. But I decided not to.
Just dont do it again.

Remember "peng you se me dou ke yi" It certainly applies to you. jJst there is no friend. Even i am not sure what is it.

ok...a sudden rush of photo activity in my blog now...hehe...this is taken in my office...actually is the upstairs of my workplace. Everyone is there except for the boss (who is the photographer) and another girl (who went to get the free ticket for initial d)....We are having a birthday party....so there are plenty of food on the table...

Hahaha.....my graduation picture...Hohohoho.....I hate the shape of my lips, btw...that is how my lips will look like when i am too excited or happy....got to control that

The many faces of ppl....

Finally... my colleagues have opened up to me...they are being to be comfortable with me...Then they revealed to me hw dangerous is the office...

Scary no 1: She is inconsiderate and dont know how to handle her subordinate. She said the meanest thing and this causes the others to want to quit the job. For me, I thought she was fine till I heard about this. Then my thoughts starts to go deeper. Feel like every word she said is very mean. But if I dont go and care about it, I wouldnt feel anything, right? So, why put myself thru this kind of torture?
Scary no 2: She is a two-faced person. One angelic and one evil. She will only be nice to you when she wants to and will put all the blame on you if there is a mistake. She is the one who wants to push all the responsibility to others so that she will have none to worry about. For me, I have not experienced the evil side fo her so I will try to be careful.
Scary no 3: This person has no temper. Never scold, just ask whether we are ok or not. But beneath that, he is one hell of a person. Never try to cross his path for he will make sure you will suffer for it. None of us dare to do so....scary...the most scariest of all....I will definitely not do anything to make him angry....

Office suddenly become a scary place. but I think it will make it more interesting. What is an office if it doesnt have all those scary elements? We are only humans. These kind of stuff exist whether we like it or not. The best way to get along peacefully is to be careful not to do anything that will hurt anyone...

Average Joe...a bit too unfair...

Average Joe 1....The girl choose the pretty boy over the average joe.
Average Joe 2....The girl choose the pretty boy over the average joe AGAIN!

Average Joe 1: Very stupid of her! The average joe is a millionaire! Not that I am thinking that she should choose money over looks...She broke up with the pretty boy she chose right after the vacation they took while the average joe got a girlfriend a month after the show.

Average Joe 2: The whole thing looks so promising for the average joe. The pretty boy is sort of stupid...the average joe is so full of personality and depth....But who did she choose? The pretty boy....adu.... But she got her balasan when the pretty boy left her after she told him that her ex-boyfriend is Fabio, some old hunky guy.

The whole show struck me as stupid...why? cause the girl always choose the pretty guy...very very typical. doesnt average joe get the chance to win it?

Now, they are going to let the average joe to be in control. they get the first average joe to come back and be the one who decide who will be his 'the one'. Just read from the website and found out that...once again....the nicer-looking and empty-headed ppl won again....ridiculous!
The summary says that the one who chooses always seems to rely on their hormones to make their decision.

One thing though...the dates they have in the show are really romantic and luxurious....

Initial D

On wednesday, my colleagues went to watch initial D...They got the free tickets to watch it...whoa....

their verdict of the movie is that it is funny....a bit unrealistic but what can one say, the movie is inspired from a manga (manga...corect ka?)..nevertheless, i still want to watch it...

Really want to watch the manga (once again, is manga the correct word?)...watch a bit of initial D the manga at my aunt's house the other day on chinese new year eve....sort fo attracted to it.really want to watch the whole thing...but ... sigh...
WHERE AM I GOING TO GET IT?!!!

monday night, xuan, initial D!!!

Workaholic me...

hehe....

Last weekend, I went back to Brunei to celebrate the dumpling festival. Had dinner at a Nyonya style restaurant. Very full stomach after that...

Earlier that day in the office, I informed the senior assistant that I will not be working overtime on that weekend and also on Monday night. She told me to watch out myself of the deadline and to have more OTs to get it all done. I made a promise that I will.

Monday night, I went to Opi to get another facial treatment, which is free. Why? Because of the complaint I made the last time I went to have a facial treatment. This time, I really enjoy the treatment experience because the person taking care of me is really friendly and funny. I have another session booked for the next month.

Starting from Tuesday, I have worked overtime every night. About 4 hours everyday. Today, Saturday, I suddenly find myself unable to do anything because I dont have a pc to work with. I cant do anything because I DONT HAVE A PC! damn... i end up trying to all the little things just to pass the time.

afternoon time, overtime! hehe...have the pc all to myself...so I get to finish all the things i need to using a pc very quickly and move on to work on another assignment...

Work is not all about work. I have fun in my workplace...Today, we celebrate our boss's birthday together with the June birthday people. The boss sponsored a huge cake (3kg fruit cake) and two dishes. We had another smaller (1.5 kg) cheese cake. We have fried noodle and rice. I had the fried kuew tiaw. Honey dew, watermelon, and jellies. What can i say? I was so full. The cake still left a whole loads. I have also discovered that the people in the upstair department knows me. HAH! They do! Hehe...they are really nice to me too....I am surprised. Well.i think as long as i havent done anything to hurt their feelings, they should be ok with me...Now, I learn to be more open and friendly to all my colleagues.

Yupe....I am loving my job now...

Have working OT got me?

moments ago, i was very pissed off.

I could have wrote a lot of my anger in here.

But since i have calmed down, I cant write any of it down as it will show that I am a very short-tempered person, no consideration for others, no gratitude for others, and self-centred pig.

And I wouldnt want that, would I?

Can I blamed it on my recent job? I dun think so actually.

Why? Because, in the midst of all the hectic schedule, I am enjoying myself. Learning new things. Things that are a lot more interesting than what I learn in my years of studying. Having colleagues who are funny, helpful, and cooperative. Gosh, i even enjoyed the OTs.

Maybe it is the time of the month...the dreadful PMS.....oh no!

Hard work...

assignment list is still long.

not very sure if can finish it in time.

30th June is the due date.

my client havent send in their accounts for year 2004.

met a client with extreme temper. Scary!

worked for seven hours straight last night. Exhausted!

But, my effort paid off.

Today, i can hand in one assignment for checking.

Miri Parade 20052005

Hehe...I dont really want to go as I know there will surely be traffic jam. But when Jeng and Elsie called, I just had to go. So i got Dad to send me to Boulevard. Then, I used Elsie's car to go to the parade.

Together we watched the parade in front of the courthouse. Then, we walked to Kingwood Inn area 'cause we were going to meet Esther there. Along the way, we anticiapted to see stco band. Whe we finally see it, we are so excited. Then, we also saw Harwinder aka Veena. She was with the Sikh assocation, i think. We had to shout her name so many times to get her attention. Then, continue to watch the whole parade.

The watching gets me really excited. I feel so proud of Miri. all of a sudden. I want to join in the walking also. Feel so proud of my students. :p

GO MIRI!

City of Values

Last night, I went to this talk about city of values. Dr Roger Cole is the speaker.

My boss bought the tickets and then let us, the employees, to go and listen to this talk. According to him, it is a good talk. No one really want to go. I just took the ticket and I had the premonition that I will forget about it when i go and watch it.

Believe it or not? I really did forget that I need to go to the talk. Fortunately, I told jinnwei the day before about it and he reminded me to go. So i rushed to shower and get ready at 6.50pm and sped to Pustaka. Arriving at 7.05pm, I realised that I was still early. Sheesh....

I didnt sit with my colleagues. Instead, I sat with my former colleagues, the substitute teachers. During the talk, while I was trying to interpret what the speaker is talking about, I wrote notes to chat with YikTing.

I am not interested in meditation type of things. So, basically, the speaker was talking about peace and happiness in oneself. the speaker is so long-winded. During the Q&A session, only one question was asked and he answered it in half an hour time when all he was trying to say was yes. I dont really get the whole thing. I think the topic for the talk is inappropriate. It should be something like 'Discover yourself through meditation.' In fact, I think that the YB's speech was more related to the topic, City Of Values. :P

Finally, we even had a meditation session. :0

After the talk, I went to lim-teh with my former colleagues. Kind of weird for I dont really know them. They felt strange to me.

I went home at around 11pm while they went for Karaoke at Rex-Box

Time Flies....20.05.2005....20052005

Whoa!

so fast...one week have passed.

Firstly, i have quit teaching for one week. feeling not too bad. i am ok with my job. i am doing well with my assignments.

Secondly, Miri is now no more a town but a city. MPM is now MBM ( Majlis Bandaraya Miri).

Honesty, I feel good about my job. i am thinking that i am being ignorant of any office politic if there is even any. I am enjoying my life. Miri, i feel has not changed much. City or no city. it is the same. unless there is going to be huge changes otherwise...miri is still miri. am i being negative?

This morning, i work although it is a holiday today. my senior mentioned that it is up to me to work or not to work on holidays. but i am thinking for more leave in the future sake. i must owrk overtime. i dun want to sit in the office with nothing much to do when it is no longer peak season. horror!

First Day in The Rat Race

my first day working in Andy Chia & Co. wasnt too bad. The people there are really nice. I was expected to read during my first day. only reading. but by afternoon, i am already starting on my first assignment. my boss told me that i dun have to work overtime this week. yeah!

I went home to eat but i noticed most ppl are eating there. maybe i will do tat too...soon...

this morning, i rush thru the paper work of stco because i cant finish it during the weekend. i dun have enough sleep and so i am going to sleep early. my mum is here. so are my cousin and her husband. according to my mum, she asked if she can come and then her husband also want to come to miri with my mum. so my mum out of courtesy invite them to come. my cousin's husband is kind of menyampah. i dunno why i feel this way.

Final Teaching Day in Stco

Today is the last day...still got plenty of paper work that i have not completed..rushing thru everything actually..trying to finish it.
one period before reces, cikgu sii asked me to go together with her to 1s2 for the class party...but then when we arrived there, jeremy told us that the party has not started yet and we cant go in yet, so back to the staff room. during recess, i was asked to go so i went. it wasnt too bad. i get a cake. american chocolate cake as my farewell cake. they also invited cikgu siti rashidah and cikgu rahmawati and another teacher whom i have forgotten. took some pictures when they though. oh! we ate spaghetti, sandwiches, brownies, jellies, ice cream, fried cheicken wings, french fries, and crackers. then i din have any teaching session with 1s1. instead we just take pictures. and then i went back to the staff room to get everything packed. form 2 student come to urge me to quickly go to their party but i was a bit lagging cause i want to put everything in the car first. this morning, come to school with a full load of exercise books and i go back with whole loads of presents...ehhe...
2d1 and 2d2 party is still about eating. cikgu emy and mdm hii are there. i get a blueberry cake. yummy. i fed a few students with cherries on the cake. and then when i ate one of the choco piece, suddenly the whole choco are gone...hehe..everyone seems to grab a piece of those. hehe...to bad that i din use my own digicam to take pics...everything are with someone else. need to get those pictures...:P oh...and one student even cried! she is kinda of emotional la...i remember the first time i asked her to read outloud in class..well...she cried also...hehe... (sweat)

OH!
a lot of presents.
on wednesday, i get a rose and a choco bar from yong kok hiung. and two more choco bars from two more students.
on friday, i get two pens, one jewellery box filled with sweets, a plastic flower, two pen holders, two photo frame, one clock, two notebooks, one perfume, two teddy bears and one joke book. not bad, huh?

tonight have to rush everything so that i cant hand it all in on monday. oh gosh...