Fried

The router is fried. gone. no more. dead.

My house phone is also fried. gone crazy.

All due to the lightning early this morning. About 5am.

The thunder was so loud that it woke me up, tripped the electricity, caused the cars' alarm to go off like crazy.

I think my laptop is still ok. I am not sure if there is any side effect to the laptop.

Planning to get a new router as soon as possible. Two or three more days. Somehow, I am accepting the fact so calmly that I need to get a new router.

Yawn...

Ei... So how do I post this? Hehe... Thanks to Lynns le... Hehe...

Yet again

I am depressed again.... Seriously depressed.

Doishite?!

Why? Why when I want to find someone to complain to and everyone is sleeping but when I dont want to talk to anyone, everyone is up late at night?

I am getting very near to the point of being broke. Shit!

Time to wait again

Ah... The latest news first... My handphone of two years has a very deep scar on it... A long crack on the front screen. I didnt know how did it happen but the screen protector came off last week and I didnt replace it. I think if the screen protector is there, there wouldnt be a crack... Ish... This is just SO great....

Ah! Finally got over the CPA exam this afternoon. 2pm to 515pm... Very exhausted... I dont know how will I fare this time. I hope I pass. It will be a big blow to my confidence if the result is not good.

Erm... K, I am going to write a post for WGTGFashion now.

Squeezing out the time to do this

Hmm... I guess it is time for some serious blog posting.

First of all, my house has guests again. The neighbour's dogs. I guess they finally realised that the wire mesh thingy is no longer there so they are free to come into the compound again. At first, they just lie under the car (as shown in the pic)

But, they decided to dig holes and lie in it. Big problem. There are soil all over the place because they will shake it off when they come out of the holes... I have put up the wire mesh thingy again.

Last week, on the 19th, I went to have dinner at Fratini Piccollo. Sort of a farewell dinner for a friend. Just the three girls.

The place is sort of empty. We were the only customers and then we became one of the two tables of customers. The amount of food that we devoured was... a lot. We kept joking that the employees of the restaurant is betting that we will not be able to finish the food. Those are Ceasar's Salad, Tiger Prawn Ravioli, Avocado Cream Soup and Marinara Pizza. We actually wanted to get a dessert as well but fortunately we didnt ordered it in the beginning 'cause we were too stuffed to eat anymore.

Ah... the fire. Sherp commented that I still have time to take pics when the incident happened. Truthfully, no one wanted to go near the back of the office at that time so we all stood at the front of the office space looking at the fire thru the back door. No one knows what to do besides looking at the fire. Come to think it... we were sort of in a dangerous position. The windows are all cracked due to the heat from the fire. The aircond's outdoor units are destroyed. Later, it was discovered that we had a aerosol can on the cabinet near the back window. If the fire has been any longer or any hotter, the aerosol can could have blown up. Gasp! We have moved such dangerous item to a safer location.

Just to show how damaged are the aircond's outdoor units. The one at the bottom right is not our office's... The smaller upper right is outs. It is totally destroyed and it is just two days old. A new aircond addition that was just installed two days before the fire. A total loss.

Just to let you guys know... My forehead, at this moment, feels like something is pressing it and it is really bothersome.. I think I will eat some panadol before I sleep.

Errr...

Firstly, the phone is charging so I cant get the pictures out of the phone at this moment. Dont want to interrupt the charging process. So no pics.

Secondly, digicam actually has pictures but I am playing songs over my window media player and this window media player dont like the memory card so if I plugged in the memory card, it will 'merajuk' and closed itself. Big sweat ... So, no pics.

So.... anyways... the package has finally arrived. And as promised, Lynnwei has posted a post about it. Hehe...

Got to explain myself... I am a bit weird these days. I am online all the time... Well, almost all the time ( I dont go online at work)... But I dont really go surfing around or read blog or check emails or ... I just dont. So... What do I do? I am online because I have paid for it and I dont want to just let it go wasted so I switched on Veoh to let run and wait for new videos to be posted and then so I can download it. :p

Then... What is the use of switching on the laptop if you are not going to use it? So, it is playing Tohoshinki's songs all the time... ALL THE TIME. No worries about the laptop speakers though 'cause the songs are playing through JWei's Altec Lansing's speakers at a very reasonable high volume. Muahaha....

P/S: I have gotten myself a new Phillips earphones so that I can drown myself with Tohoshinki's songs while my aunties are here to visit. :P

Recently, whoever who sits in my car will probably have to endure listening to me talking about Tohoshinki and nothing else. Believe me. I understand the pain of enduring me so I have been stopping myself. I promise not to over-do it. Promise!

Another something to talk about is... err... apology, you have to read about Tohoshinki... I was in pain last night. In complete depression. Sigh... keywords are.... Tohoshinki. KL. Concert. Me. Miri. At Home. Listening to their songs. SIGH~~~~

Then to find out that their latest photobook, if I am to buy it from Yesasia.com, it will cost me RM 600+. Want to die ar.... Then again, I dont want it. :P

Ok... enough about that.

Err... Had a first time thingy last night. First time in my life. I actually win a lottery. err.. consider as a lottery ka? Dont know la. Anyways, I bought this 6/52 from Toto and I have 4 digits in the winning numbers and so... I won the 4th place prize.... which is .... RM3. Muahaha....

Been busy doing this thing of mine at home. Want to get as much done as possible and then also worrying about the arrivals of my aunties. I cant imagine what the situation will be like.

Hiatus.. dont think so

I am thinking to go into hiatus but part of me refuse to do so. I dont know what to write these days. I have been thinking too much, feeling too much.

Been feeling a bit depressed... stressed out... emotional...

Money cant buy happiness but no money can also cause unhappiness. Money is such a sensitive issue. To be indirectly in charge of the home finances, I feel so pressured and ... under-budgetted. My envy to those people who has their elders to care of all the financial problems. My respect to those who can manage under tight budget.

Exam is drawing close and I havent really get much studying going on. I fear that I will not do well this time. Hopefully three weeks of no work will help me to study... Hopefully

The feeling of being misunderstood is draining my energy. I even gotten to the phase where I shake uncontrollably of frustration. My inability of communicating effectively? My taking-everything-people-say-seriously attitude? Darn..and he didnt know he hurt my feelings. Hmm... tears threathening to fall from the memory of what has happened

Tear-jerking Sunday as I watched One Litre of Tears. Should be a story that encourages people to live on but somehow, I still feel like dying. To feel the release that the heroine has when she passed away. If I have to go through what the heroine went through, I am not sure what will I do to pass the time while waiting for the time to die to arrive. Dont think I will have her strength to live on despite of all the complications from her disease. Dont think I will have anything that people will remember me by. The heroine has a whole loads of phrases and poems that encourages people to live on. How depressing for me!

Despise office politics.... Despise the deterioration of human relationship... I am too lazy to elaborate on this. Too f***ing sien to talk about.

Love and hate relationship with the car. The screeching of tyre when I brake. The warm air from the aircond under a hot afternoon and an extremely cold airflow when it is all windy and cool outside. The memories of the car with Grandpa and Grandma. Tears forming again.

I wonder if this is what happen when you live alone in a big house and there is no one who can share the burden. Sometimes I can go on the whole day without even saying a word.. because there is no one to talk to.


Worry no more... I am recovering. In a way... Trying not to think too much. Trying to laugh it all away. Looking forward to the BBQ this weekend.

But if really want to give me a helping hand. $$ for me will be great. Haha... oh! and a boyfriend, please... :P

Ok... I should get back to studying. Finally get some of the frustration out in the blog.

More makan-makan

Firstly, the outings with cousins.
Halo Cafe seems to be the hang-out place we go to nowadays. It is not a good place for chit-chatting though. Anyways, Lynnwei and Lynthia went to Halo Cafe on last two Thursday nights ago after an unfruitful shopping trip at Imperial. The most memorable of that night is about the HK drama that Lynnwei was telling me about which I am very interested to watch now. :P

Love Yogurt, drink I cant remember the name, chicken popcorn & french fries

Then, we (Lynnwei, Lynnx and I) went to Desserts on Wednesday night. Sort of sitting there chatting and looking through magazines.

Erm... Talking about Halo Cafe. Went there for the first time to support Kueh for the singing competition. Then, second time to support Kueh for the semi-final and finally, on Thursday, the final round.

Had the Sunshine Fish chop which is quite delicious and very fulfilling. Went there as early as 6pm so that we can get a big table to fit everyone. I didnt leave my seat from 6pm till 10pm. Straight 4-hour sitting. I cant believe myself either. So tiring.

Kueh is the Participant no. 6 and it took a pretty long time to wait for him to perform. Anyways... here are the videos of his performance. Kind of noisy though. He only got a consolation prize btw.

Semi-final performance

Final round performance Part 1

Final round performance Part 2

Erm... On Monday, office got broken into. Scary. To think that I am the first one to open the office door. Dont dare to go to office so early anymore.

Been proscratinating. Delaying a lot of things. Dont know why. It just happen. But... the most important thing is that....

I CANT WAIT TO GO TO SINGAPORE!!

HAHA!!

Unlucky

Talk about being completely "SOI"

I have been in total soi-ness recently.

My car started to break down... At first, the aircond broke down... After two weeks, the aircond broke down again. After it was fixed, the engine leak oil like mad. After that is fixed, the car doesnt have much brake. When I thought the car is fixed, the mechanic told me the aircond broke down. When I got the car back without fixing the aircond, the brake has little improvement from its previous 'no brake' situation. The car alignment is also a little off and the stupid mechanic fixed the car till it has an even weirder and noisier noise that he blamed on the tyre that has just been replaced about one month ago. Damn!

I had it! I am not fixing the car for the time being. Jinnwei is going back to studying so I will be the only one driving the car. Dont think my dad will want to drive it since it is without aircond. He has been avoiding driving the car. Previously he would drive the car regardless whether I need the car or not.

Then, there is my slippers. My only two pairs of slippers. Both of them broke off. I was slipper-less.

But, I got myself a new pair of slippers instead.

A pair of Diadora orange slippers.

I feel so drained physically and emotionally. Frustration.

Drink more plain water!!!

My mum told me a devastating news about my niece. At a young age of 21, she has kidney failure. She had to do kidney dialysis three times a day in order to extract the excess unprocessed liquid in her body. There was a time after she did the diaylsis, she actually dropped 5kg. That is how bad her water retention is...

She has once graced Borneo Post and the famous Kenny Sia's blog simply because her IC was found and then published in Borneo Post.

I wanted to write a very devastating and touching story about her but I think that it is not right so instead... DRINK MORE WATER!

Not soft drink! Not naturally or artifically sweetened water! BUT plain water...

Drink up to 8 glasses of water...which should equals to 2 litre of water?

And... if drinking alcohol, make sue to drink more plain water because alcohol actually make the liver work harder so you need to drink more water to lessen the burden for the liver.

Scary...

Outburst

Was talking to Yuanz on the phone just now and realised how pissed off I still am about how the people handled my car. I think I want to write about it here and forget all about it.

First of all, I will apologize for the language that I am going to use but it really reflect how I felt at that time.

On Friday when the car was hit, around 1pm, the towshop/workshop guy called JWei but JWei passed the phone to me. The guy asked me to go over to the Traffic Police Station with the car to have pictures taken and to make police report at 3pm. Ok, no problem with that but shouldnt the pics be taken at the time of the accident. Maybe it is just a really damaged bumper so no biggie. Never mind. As I almost arriving at the police station at 3.05pm, the guy's colleague, who happens to be my cousin, called and told me that I dont have to be at the station anymore as the aunty decided not to claim insurance to pay for the damages. But I will need to either bring the car to the workshop tomorrow or Monday to have it fixed. Ok, why didnt call earlier to tell me that I dont have to be at the police station. Made me drive all the way there with that horrible looking bumper to tell me to drive back home again. Do you think I love to drive around with that horrible bumper and huge dent?! What with the wait-till-Monday-to-fix? I want it fixed asap. So Saturday, it is. I waited till 10am to call and made sure that it is ok for me to send the car. My cousin gave me the green light so off I went. When i arrived there, my cousin wasnt there to assist but instead I am left to get someone to notice and assist me. Why the hell do you ask me to go there and pretending that you will be there to help me when you arent going to be there? Then, finally the lady got informed of my situation so she arranged for a guy to take pics of the damages. No one told me that the car cannot be fixed on that day till I asked. The boss told me that it can only be fixed on Monday. So I should drive over on Monday to have it fixed. Ok, having me driving this car all the way to Piasau to have pics taken and to drive it all the way to Piasau again to have it fixed. What the hell?! At 11.45am, I received a phone call from a guy from this workshop telling that he accidentally deleted all the pics he took and so I have to drive all the way to Piasau to have the pics retaken. What do you mean by accidentally delete it? You mean you intentionally delete it, dont you? 'Cause it sounds more like you are intentional. Fine, I will drive it there for you to take those f***ing pictures again. I specifically told the guy that I will be there at 230pm which I did arrive at 230pm precisely (according to the clock in my car). Guess what? I have to wait again. Another person is assigned to take the pictures this time. Then she told me that they need to quote the price of the repair to the aunt who hit my car on Monday morning and then, then I can have my car fixed on Monday afternoon. What the hell again? Why the hell do we, no, I have to go through so much trouble and waste so much time? Ok, I dont want to argue, no energy to do that. Fine, Monday it is.

Monday, I waited and waited and waited till 5pm. Where is that call to tell me that I can send the car over to fix? Where is that promised phone call? Forget all about me, is it? I called my cousin and he told me that he will call and ask for me. The guy, who is supposed to be the one in charge of this whole situation and whom till now, I have not seen, called me and told me that the aunty dont agree with the price and want to have a look at the car before agreeing to paying. So I will need to bring the car over to the workshop at 830 tomorrow, which is Tuesday. Not willing to pay? Then why dont want to claim insurance? Why want to be so troublesome?

Tuesday, I had to apply for leave so that I can be there at the workshop. I cant understand why she refused to pay the quoted price till she sees the car. I arrived (on time again) at precisely 830 am. Calling the guy to tell him that I am at the workshop. He told me to wait and then after 15 minutes, I called him again just to be told that the aunty is on her way now from Pujut. Ok, Pujut is fairly near from Piasau. Shouldnt take long now. Waited for another 15 minutes. What the hell? Where the hell is this lady driving from? Need to take such a long time? If already made an appointment at 830, then be there on time! Again, the aunty and I (actually, I think it is more like me is the only one who is waiting again) waited for the person who is supposed to be the middle guy to come. The girl who took the pics came to talk things out. She was persistant about the RM1650 but later agreed to the RM1600. The aunty sounded apologetical but the guy she was with wasnt happy with the quotation. Excuse me. I thought the pics they took are clear enough to show the damages on my car. Why the hesistance? Unless they didnt show the pics, or have they unintentionally delete the pics again? I dont know. What I know is that this is wasting a lot of my time.

The girl actually said that I will need to bring the car back another day because the workshop cant seems to accomodate me yet. I think the look on my face showed that I am not happy and I want it done asap. My car might not be very damaged but it is still damaged. I have driven to this workshop for so many f***ing times and you want me to drive it back here again at some other f***ing day. Do you want to do my business? If dont want, then dont waste my time in the first place. The girl called the boss and confirmed that they can repair my car today so I can leave my car at the workshop. Four days to do.

I am so sick of this. The next time if such thing happen, I want to claim the insurance company, it should be much much faster and less hassle. Claim whatever that I can claim for. The car actually also suffered some damages at the front but I cant have it fixed because they want to charge me for it and Dad doesnt want that. This is just so frustrating!

F*** the aunty for knocking into my car. F*** the workshop for being so unprofessional. Bullshit to that whatever approved workshop by whatever insurance companies. This workshop sucks for mistreating me.

What?! Hit Again?!

i have been so worried to let JWei use my Wira. i dont want anything to happen to it after it has gotten a new beautiful bumper due to this.

Jwei has been very careful that I am already getting used to the fact that he can drive. Abuthen...today...just when he is going to fly at 7pm later... the car got bumped because a stupid lady pressed the accelerator instead of the brake... JWei is ok, just the car nia lor....

My poor, poor bumper~~


The culprit to the destruction of my bumper. It has also suffer some damages. But i dun care~~!!

Bond...James Bond...007....2007

Another year.

I actually wanted to recall back what i did every month but I stopped at February feeling like wanting to cry already.

So.... i end this post with a pic of my new contact lenses which are not very clear here but it is supposed to be grey colour....

Not in the mood

Christmas is really busy this year. Thinking about it, almost every year i spend Christmas wandering around in the shopping centres. This year Christmas Eve is a little special becase i had a Kazens' Christmas Party at my place. No adults supervision. The speed of all of us consuming the food was amazing. Super fast and the amount of food was just right.

Merry Christmas~~!

"Recycled" pic from the previous two years. Refer here (2004) and here (2005).

A few days before, my phone was barred due to no money to pay the phone bill. After more than half year of faithful monthly payments to Celcom, I finally ran out of cash to pay the bill and thus, the stoppage of services to my phone. Nevertheless, I became unattached to my phone despite of feeling forlorn.

Christmas eve, I accidentally dropped my bag on the hot jalanraya and due to my unattachness to my phone, I totally forgotten that my phone was in the bag. My phone went into a coma state and didnt respond to the electrical treatment. After a short rest, it finally regained consciousness and I rejoiced.

Christmas Day, dread came over me when I discovered that my phone will not allow any electricity feeding.

I fell into the hole of desperation and forlornness

I tried to cheer myself with a purchase of a new fragrance. I have always wanted to get a new fragrance for myself 'cause the ones I have arent my own choice. Thus, I bought Calvin Klein Eternity Summer. Special edition somemore le. Managed to get an extra freebie from the saleslady - using my super-cute persuasion power...(vomit)


Still feel forlorn le. Yuanz told me that his friend told him that there is a possibility that my phone might never be usable ever again. Shit la!

I wonder when will I ever recover le...

i cant believe it!

Today, I had lunch with Jeng at Double Star. Hmm...The Spaghetti Bolognese is a disappointment because it is not so tasty.



Anyway... My car got kissed... My bumper once again suffer the impact. I dont understand why is my luck so low....Sigh...

I cant think of a heading

Was in the mood to make things to eat on Thursday night. And so I made sandwiches and jellies. This is the first time I make jellies using the plastic molds. My first attempt was a blooper. It wouldnt come out of the mold and when I forced it out with a spoon, it fell apart. Total frustration.

My first attempt of jellies

At 9 sumthing am on Friday morning, I started my second batch of jellies after consulting Aunt Cecilia about my disasterous first attempt. My second attempt was an ok. It didnt come apart although it was difficult to get it out of the mold.

My second attempt of jellies

Food at annual dinner

It is time of the year again for company annual dinner. Joanna, Huiling and Chai came over to my place to get ready for the dinner. At Cafe Rosita, two long tables were reserved for us. The food is served in buffet style and it is actually specially for Ramaddan. We (referring to Chai, Joanna, Laura, Kelvin and I) arrived among the earliest and left as the last few ones. We went to Al Fresco to have a drink before going home. Chai and Joanna overnight at my place. We chatted till 3am before falling asleep. We actually planned to sleep in bedrooms but we ended sleeping in the living room. :p

On Saturday, we woke up when Jong came over. Gosh... so sleepy le. But still went to eat breakfast and play badminton. After badminton, we went to eat/drink cold drinks at the rojak shop near Petronas.



I slept like a dead log the rest of the afternoon. I think I still float around feeling half dead till this Sunday afternoon.

Btw, ever wonder if I look good with curly hair. Here is a pic of me with curly hair..hehe...

Unusual Saturday

As usual, I got ready to go to work and considering whether to go over to Lynn's place. When I drove past Lynn's place, I knew the time is not enough. So I just drove off to go to work thru Tanjung Road...I guess after being too comfortable with my drivng skill and rainy day, it finally hit me back in the face.

At the corner in front of Samling, I lost control of the car, skidded and got stuck on the cement in front of Park City Everly Hotel. In that few seconds of losing control, I just went
'Wad?! Shit! Aaaaaaa....!'
I didnt suffer any injury. Phew! But the car....Hand shaking, Mind confused... I struggled to remember who for help.





Ok la...Not so bad la...Just the tyre rim nia la... I started to feel ok after fifteen minutes of waiting. Looking at all those kaypo faces of ppl who drove past my car. Passing time by taking pics of the car and talking to myself. Got my cousin to come and help me to tow my car out of its 'difficult' situation and sent me to work.

During lunch time, went to eat claypot dishes with rice. Although the claypot dishes are meant for one single person, the three of us, karen, thomas and i ended sharing each claypot dish with each other.

After that, I have no idea why but Thomas and I kept on 'jio' Karen to go to Shiki..So, off we went. We bought two types of sushi... Avocado and Soft-Shelled Crab Sushi and Squid Sushi...

Tears flow freely

Ever since grandma is gone...ever since jinnwei go back to study in kl...I have been submerging myself into my work.

I dont dare to mention too much about grandma...fearing that I might break down and cry...

The other day when I brought jinnwei to highlight his hair, I asked him whether he can imagine what grandma would have said if she saw jinnwei highlight his hair. I cant help but shed a tear.

Tonight, when i read thru lynnx's blog, I cant stop myself from crying thinking about grandma.

My pc at work constantly showing pictures of me travelling in Wellington and Labuan. Trips I had due to grandma.

I miss her so much.

She is gone

Arrangement for the funeral is happening right now. There are specialists who came to help us with the details.

Grandma played on joke on us yesterday when her heartbeat went to zero. We thought she is really gone and without us by her side. But she stayed alive for another day. Probably laughing at us for falling for her joke and wanting us to spend more time with her. Or maybe she is just wanting us to get koko home asap so that koko can be there for her.

This morning, thinking that everything is alright, I went to work. Heart fell, hand shaking, head dizzy, I answered Uncle Goh's call to find out that grandma's blood pressure has dropped to a dangerous level again.

Arriving at the her room in the ICU, tears kept falling down my face... She is no longer conscious. She cant respond to us anymore.

10 sumthing am, she finally left us.

I dont want her to give up. I want her to be well again. But she has suffered so much.

I miss her so much now. Everything in my home reminds me of her.

Grandma must recover and be well!

Wednesday...

Mum came back from KL and I discover that night she had an accident at KL two days ago. Fortunately, she didnt get hurt badily. I havent got to see her yet...

Thursday day...not working...

Did some banking stuff on Thursday morning before flying off to Kuching. Didnt have any breakfast and only had a sandwich at the airport.
Arrived at Kuching at noon and went to Hung Hung Inn to put our stuff. Received sms that grandma' operation has been postponed to the next day.
Discovered how weird is the shower head in the hotel bathroom...


Sunday...Time to go back...

Went to see grandma and we are given the news that if her kidneys arent producing enough urine, then they will have to use dialysis on her.
Wanted to tell grandma that we (yuan and I) are going back to Miri and she must ganbatte to get well but Grandma is unconscious.
Went to eat Bak Kut Teh and Pork Rice for brunch with yuan and Danny. Then went to Sunny Hill Ice Cream to get ice cream (Yummy...!). Then went to look around at the houses in Richmond Garden after driving around the Friendship Garden..A garden built by China and Malaysia to signify their friendship...Airport...Thanks, Danny for the ride.

Back to Miri...

Lynnx and Uncle Wong picked us up. While we are on our way home, a tree branch hit the car roof top, we joked about the car plate number coming out as first prize in magnum. Guess what? It did come out as first prize in Specal Cash Sweep. No one bought the number.

Back to work...Monday...

A lot of things to do...I tried to clear up my stuff as much as possible and with faster speed.
Time to work overtime at night again. I sort of welcome this permission to work overtime at night 'cause I dont want to go home so early...and my stuff is piling up. Jinnwei's SPM result came out today. I am proud of him..he didnt do particularly well compared with Lynnwei & Lynnx but this is better than what I have expected. I guess all the taunting and last minute studying work out... Jinnwei, I am truly proud of you. Now, all you have to do is to continue to do well in Taylor's. Dont waste the money we use to let you study there.
Pick Dad at the airport after work and went back to work after showering and change of clothes.
900pm, went to Ming Cafe with Karen and had Chicken Chop. Regret la...I am getting fatter..

Tuesday..today...

Feeling so hungry now 'cause I havent had my dinner. Been working from 800am till 1200 noon and then 130pm to 900pm...
My heart missed a beat when I received a sms from Lynnx that grandma is not responding today. What happen?! Cant ask anything since it is so late. Will have to wait till tomorrow...Sigh...
p/s: A long entry because I have been lazy to write before this.