I am a good girl

Good girl image...

Innocent, naive, no-partying, no-drinking, no-smoking, mummy's girl, daddy's girl, sweet, go home straight after work....

I think that can pretty much sum up the good girl image...

When people look at me, they assume that I am a good girl.

But they didnt know that I am just shy and I usually dont show my true self till I get to know them well (or little well). I need time to adjust.

Of course, there are people I dont bother to get along with la....

But anyway, I suddenly feel like reflecting on this issue. My colleagues expressed their surprise when they realised that I am not exactly the good girl they think I am.

Example one:-
When gohyie had her colleagues over at her house to drink...Never know that gohyie has a bottle of Chivas at home that she is desperate to open le... :P

Example two:-
When gohyie mention a certain something during a msn group conversation and even demonstrated it graphically, gohyie shocked everyone for been so..erm...open? not so naive after all le...

Example three:-
When gohyie went to drink at a colleague's house, they mentioned that they will never be able to guess that gohyie actually can drink....

Example four:-
It happens today.... :P A colleague suddenly talked to me about the accident today. She told me that she was guessing who is the fifth person who was also there during that accident and mentioned her surprise when she found out that the fifth person is me.

The only thing I can do at that time is smile awkwardly and think 'Shit! My reputation gone liaw!"

So...I guess I have to clear up some of the fogs around me...I guess I am just a little tired to be thought as a good girl...

One is that I am not so innocent la. I know things. My problem is that I dont know how to react to things and I dont react well when I am facing people. If facing with awkward situation, I prefer to be in front of the computer monitor (facing the situation online la...)

Two is that I am not that naive le... I know about sex. I know more about sex than my friends when I was in secondary school. I even lend my friend a book describing about sex...(Oii! it is a book teaching about sex. Sex education book le...not porn la)

Three is that I love to join parties but I dont really know how to socialise and I dont know how to dance. I lack of friends to bring me to parties 'cause people think that I am a good girl.

Four is that I do know how to drink. In fact, I prefer liquer than beer.

Five is that I know how to smoke. I tried smoking one cigarette when I was in Form Five and discover that I am not allergic to it. So, I am not against smoking but I dont smoke. I know the health hazard of smoking. I will not risk my health for something so useless.

Six is that I am not a daddy's girl but I am bit of mummy's girl. I listen to my mum and I will not listen to her when I really want to do something which she disallow me.

Seven is that I can be sweet. I can be so nice to someone that that person and the people around me think that I have some feeling for that person but I dont. I just enjoy being nice to that person.

Eight is that I really do go home after work. But I really love to go out if I can and if there is something I can do when I am outside.

So, please do not hesitate to call me out...

However, there is always the other side..you will never know...